Patrick’s Blog

I’m Patrick and I run this website. This is a rambling series of articles based around my life disabled with multiple sclerosis (M)S & how I cope. It became so big that I have had to break it down into small groups which you will see on the right hand side.

I am an optimist and like to see the happier side of life. I hope this comes through in these articles on my life with MSNo one likes a person who does not smile

Every morning I have to stretch my stiff muscles

Every morning I have to stretch my stiff muscles

Getting straight out of bed and immediately walking into the bathroom, don’t make me laugh :-). Every morning I have to stretch my stiff muscles. What did I do in my sleep? Was I racing Mo Farah last night or was it just a nightmare? Whatever it was, it has left my muscles scrunched up. An […]

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Life before diagnosis of multiple sclerosis

Life before diagnosis of multiple sclerosis

I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis in 1995 but my journey started much earlier. In 1972 when I was nearly 18 I was in the pub having some beers with a couple of friends. Suddenly I had the urge to go to the loo but when I went nothing happened. I didn’t think anything of […]

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Can I walk at least six kilometres

Can I walk at least six kilometres

On 24th September 2017 the MS Society is organising a sponsored walk called ‘Together we walk’. On their website they state ‘This September hundreds of MS Superstars, our friends and families, will join forces in London to take in the sights and raise funds to stop MS. Will you join us?’  http://bit.ly/2blg64f Can I walk […]

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Think about the positives

Think about the positives

Too many people with progressive MS suffer in the heat, I know I do. I’m not naturally lazy its just that I am clobbered by the heat. The energy just drains out of my body and worse if its humid as well. Two hot days and already I’m apprehensive of the summer. I must remember […]

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Stumble fall crunch and wallop

Stumble fall crunch and wallop

Monday evening We had finished watching episode 5 of Line of Duty. No spoilers I promise. Program finished and we were done. All that was left was to clear up the room and toddle off to bed. The Wife had taken the glasses through to the kitchen. All I had to do was switch off […]

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Another milestone in the inevitable progression of my MS

Another milestone in the inevitable progression of my MS

Something has definitely changed in the last few weeks. It was not an ‘Oh my God’ moment as in a flash of inspiration. Instead it was an ‘Oh my God’ realisation and it took a few weeks for me to understand. Let’s call it another milestone in the inevitable progression of my MS. Life moves […]

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Sometimes I want a bit of stress

Sometimes I want a bit of stress

We can all recall moments when stress has got the better of us. Moments of bad stress might include road rage, trolley rage, package rage and even computer rage. All caused by heightened anger or frustration. Sometimes I want a bit of stress. Sometimes I want a bit of stress Stress like this lasts for […]

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Is liberation and freedom just a Botox away?

Is liberation and freedom just a Botox away?

On Wednesday 1st Feb I went to Queens Square to receive Botulinium Toxin or Botox injections into my bladder. I had wanted the injections for over two years. Life with a badly behaved as well as irritable bladder is no joke. I had learnt a lot of techniques to make life with this handicap easier. […]

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What would I like returned to me by Multiple Sclerosis?

What would I like returned to me by Multiple Sclerosis?

What would I like returned to me by Multiple Sclerosis? I’m talking about basic abilities, ones I have lost for ever. The list is far too long to bore you. In my dreams there is only I would like back. I’m sure it’s something lots of people take for granted. Right now I am really […]

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I wake up every night to visit the lavatory

I wake up every night to visit the lavatory

I saw my MS consultant for the annual visit in November 2016. He asked me if there were any changes since my last visit to the clinic. I said to him “Now I wake up every night to visit the lavatory and have a tiny pee”‘ I wake up every night to have a pee […]

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Every morning its four sticky FES electrodes

Every morning its four sticky FES electrodes

Every morning its four sticky FES electrodes. I must put them on my left leg. Two go onto my thigh and two go just below the knee. I started using the FES two years ago in December 2014. I estimate that I have taken the sticky electrodes off about 720 times and put them back […]

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Going away for a short break

Going away for a short break

Going away for a short break used to be so easy. The hardest part was deciding where to go. The wife and I would finally agree on a place. From then on it was a simple process. Throw a few clothes into a suitcase, grab a book, car keys, wallet and the cheque book and […]

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WorldvsMS challenge and The Amsterdam HACK

WorldvsMS challenge and The Amsterdam HACK

The WordvsMS campaign is an initiative that had been setup to give a voice to people with Multiple Sclerosis. The campaign has asked people with MS to list their challenges in everyday life. Three challenges were accepted from 103 that were submitted A weekend in mid-November was selected when groups of people were invited to […]

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Finally I think progress is being made

Finally I think progress is being made

A couple of weeks ago I wrote a post expressing my frustration with trying to get Botox treatment for my bladder. If you missed the post and would like to read it then please click HERE. Yes, I was unbelievably frustrated. Overnight the hospital had shunted my appointment from the next day to March next […]

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Man still needs Botox for his bladder

Man still needs Botox for his bladder

I need Botox injections to control my bladder spasticity. This issue has been rocking around my locker for more than a couple of years. I have written about these problems far too often. You must be bored with them.  Even I admit this subject does not come top of my reading list. Well read on, […]

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Going back to Pilates

Going back to Pilates

I have missed my last four Pilates’ sessions. They are on a Friday morning but I have been away. Going back to Pilates was a bit like going back to school after the Easter or Christmas break. Going back to Pilates Don’t get me wrong I enjoy Pilates. It helps me with the biggest problems […]

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I use incontinence pads

I use incontinence pads

Oooo, this is a difficult subject It is something I had to man-up to quite seriously several years ago. I have had bladder problems since I was a young man, multiple sclerosis has a lot to answer for 🙁 Nowadays I use incontinence pads because of the irritable bladder. I only wear normal underwear The […]

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Its when the unexpected happens

Its when the unexpected happens

Its when the unexpected accident happens. Inevitably I get stressed and this feeling lasts for a couple of hours. When I am feeling fragile it does not take much to tip me over the edge. Most of the time I’m as tough as old boots. Its when the unexpected happens The problem is the MS. My memory and sense […]

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A long journey called multiple sclerosis

A long journey called multiple sclerosis

It all started in 1972 I was almost 18. One day I was in my parent’s antiques shop when two young dealers visited. They offered to take me out for a drink. After a pint I was desperate to go to the loo. I excused myself and went to the gents but then I could […]

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MS Society MSLIFE2016 Exhibition

MS Society MSLIFE2016 Exhibition

Over the weekend 17/18 September the MS Society held its biennial exhibition, The MS Society MSLIFE2016 Exhibition MS Society MSLIFE2016 Exhibition I went there on the first day and arrived at about 12.30. There was expectation and excitement from the moment I walked into the exhibition as well as a noisy atmosphere. During the day I […]

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Do my morning exercises

Do my morning exercises

As little as ten years ago I would wake up and get out of bed without a thought. Such bliss, such joy. Now when I wake up I always feel horribly stiff. It’s a huge effort to turn over onto my back so I can swing my legs out of bed and sit on the […]

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Sticky electrodes and my FES

Sticky electrodes and my FES

I started using a Functional Electrical Stimulation (FES) in January 2014. It has been my game changer. Without the sticky electrodes and my FES I would probably have to use a wheelchair around the house. Hold on a moment, I would definitely have to use a wheelchair. Instead I have a different life. Sticky electrodes and my […]

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An invisible physical disability

An invisible physical disability

Are you like me? I suffer from an invisible physical disability. Do these statements sound familiar? “Crikey I didn’t know you were disabled”.  Or maybe someone said “You don’t look disabled”. Sometimes it’s even “You look healthy”, and then they deserve a slap. An invisible physical disability Millions of us in Briton have a hidden disability. […]

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My Badly Behaved Bladder

My Badly Behaved Bladder

Sometimes you just want your MS problems to go away. I know the severity is different for everyone but there are times when the niggles just get to be too much.  My badly behaved bladder has been around for over 35 years. Slightly longer than I have been married. My badly behaved bladder Its not […]

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Some things I simply do not see 

Some things I simply do not see 

Vision is a bit of a mystery to me at times. Some things I can see perfectly well and some things I simply do not see. I know my vision is not 20/20 🙁 I always have to wear a pair of  glasses, I even have special reading glasses. Some things I simply do not […]

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The FES has been a life changer

The FES has been a life changer

An FES was originally fitted over 18 months ago to help my footdrop. The FES has been a life changer. It makes me feel more confident, I have better balance and an I-can-do feeling. OK so I still need to use a rollator. The FES has been a life changer At my last visit in […]

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I cannot do things I once took for granted

I cannot do things I once took for granted

Everyone knows Multiple sclerosis is a horrible disease. Now I cannot do things I once took for granted, its the Multiple Sclerosis. Its taken a long time but I thinks it has finally got me. I get so frustrated. I cannot do things I once took for granted Am I wrong? I don’t think so. […]

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Visit The Shoulder Consultant Again

Visit The Shoulder Consultant Again

I had an operation to repair the rotator cuff in my left shoulder in August 2014. There is still an occasional twinge in my left shoulder.  Shortly after the operation, the consultant said he could do a hip replacement in less time than it took to repair my shoulder. Only then did I realise it […]

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Something prevents a good sleep

Something prevents a good sleep

It all started in the middle of last year, 2015, I had an appointment to see a urology consultant. I was having problems with leaking urine before I inserted a catheter to have a pee. Only very very occasionally was there a total disaster. Accidents do happen and very occasionally I have to change my […]

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The FES Really Changed My Life

The FES Really Changed My Life

The FES really changed my life. I am quite sure it was the Functional Electrical Stimulator otherwise known as an FES. Originally fitted in December 2014. I immediately stopped falling over with monotonous regularity. Instead I stayed upright, it changed my life for the better . So many people commented that I looked better and […]

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Heads MS Wins or Tails I Lose

Heads MS Wins or Tails I Lose

Heads MS wins or tails I lose. Its all on the toss of a coin? Life is unfair. Running, driving, dog walking, employment are just a few things my friend MS has won from me. It is exerting such a strong grip on my life. Nowadays I run out of energy more quickly than ever 🙁 […]

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Award in Education and Training

Award in Education and Training

I am doing a Level 3 Award in Education and Training. People with physical disabilities must have a better quality of life. The number of disabled people is growing. Able bodied people must learn to accept them into their lives. Disabled people need to make adjustments to their behaviour. Only little changes need to be […]

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The Highwayman in Berkhamsted

The Highwayman in Berkhamsted

The Highwayman in Berkhamsted used to be a Blanc Brasserie restaurant, it catered for people who use a wheelchair admirably. There was a good disabled loo at pavement level. The dining area is over half a dozen steps lower than the entrance but there was a lift for wheelchair users to get to the dining […]

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Life without a FES would be unthinkable

Life without a FES would be unthinkable

I have SPMS and seriously disabled with foot drop. I was fitted with a Functional Electrical Stimulator (FES) in December 2014. A consultant from Queens Square, London suggested that it would help my walking. At first I found it very fiddly to setup and this did not inspire me with confidence. Within a few days […]

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Swimming is proper exercise

Swimming is proper exercise

At hydrotherapy I had unexpectedly found myself swimming doggy paddle. Suddenly I realise swimming is proper exercise. There is no fear of falling over. It uses so many muscles. It is healthy exercise and no fear of falling over, call it a water workout. Feeling exhilarated by the thought of swimming a few strokes I […]

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Repairing my rotator cuff

Repairing my rotator cuff

Repairing my rotator cuff was my operation in August 2014. Its now December 2015, that was more than 15 months ago. My shoulder now has a full range of movement but no strength when lifting my arm up to the horizontal position. I assumed this would to be my misfortune for the rest of my […]

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