Friday night on 14 December 2012 was yet another sleepless night.
I seem to have lost the knack of falling asleep. I managed to doze before finally dropping off at about 5 in the morning. When I woke up at about 9 I did not feel too awful, Barby said ‘stay in bed and get some more sleep.’ I knew that would not work so I got dressed and pottered about the house not achieving a great deal.
During the day I got cross with myself because my mind was wandering and I could not concentrate. Barby suggested that next time I can’t get to sleep at night then get out of bed and do some work on the website. I won’t feel guilty. An inspired idea.
Finally at 4 on Saturday afternoon I hit the bumpers and went to back to bed for an afternoon snooze. That was the plan, but the dogs thought differently and started barking at quarter past five and there were three phone calls in rapid succession. I got up at six, I did feel better but I could have done with a bit more kip.
My left leg had a mind of its own
At ten I admitted defeat and poured my self into bed. Woke up at five on ?Sunday morning wanting to go to the loo and I felt awful. I finally hauled myself out of bed, stood up but immediately fell back onto the bed. I just could not tell my left leg what to do and the muscles felt very weak.
Has this ever happened to you?
My balance was no good because I could not move my left leg. If I put weight on it I would do a very inelegant pirouette and then fall over. Has this ever happened to you?
I was gripped by a terrible thought – is my left leg always going to remain so totally useless? As Sunday morning turned into the afternoon my left leg became more obedient and stopped crumpling under my weight, I felt better.
Sleepless nights, they started about 2 years ago when I was working in Hamburg. It would almost inevitably occur during the weekend so we put the problem down to travel and concern with work. At Hamburg I was working for an Iranian bank, EIHB, and forced closure by the USA was hanging over our heads all the time.
Anyway the problem of sleepless nights has persisted and gets worse and worse. I had lost the knack of falling asleep at night. Most people read a book, feel sleepy,turn out the light and fall asleep. Me, I turn the light off and bang I’m wide awake. I can fall asleep in front of the telly, in a film at the cinema even in the theatre. I have tried various sleeping pills, they solve the problem but only for two weeks then its back to square one. I could increase the dose but I did not want to become addicted to them.
I do try and avoid an afternoon nap. Sleep hygiene is terribly important.