Diary of a Man with MS

Started in June 2016. Diary of a man with MS is a sporadic report of my life with MS. There are so many ups and downs, twists and turns. Sometimes I think it is worth telling other people about them.

Sometimes I want to keep the story to myself. None the less this whole website is a story of my life especially the tab ‘Living with MS’.

Diary of a man with MS

MS is another piece of baggage that can make the emotional roller-cosaster ride of life even more exciting or should I say daunting as well as frustrating.

An after thought

I have divided the diary section up into years that way it is easier to see what happens and when. I think this makes it more logical.

Unless I am careful this website is going to get too large and unwieldy. Maybe it is there already. Who knows?

My life with MS and invisible disabilities

My life with MS and invisible disabilities

My life with MS is turning into a balancing act. Not the high-wire type of balance, just making sure I don’t do two things simultaneously. My life is now just one job at a time, no more walking and talking. Invisible disabilities rule plus they control my life. Nobody knows I have invisible disabilities unless […]

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A stressful house move

A stressful house move

Downsizing has definitely made this a very stressful house move. Everything in our lives was going to change. Advanced MS and its disabilities, we are both physically past our prime and living in a house with stairs meant our time was up.  Throughout our married life we have accumulated possessions. Furniture, books, clothes, ornaments and […]

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Time to move into a more suitable property

Time to move into a more suitable property

Me and MrsB decided its time to move into a more suitable property. Multiple sclerosis and age have finally caught up with me.  Our Victorian five bedroomed terraced house is beautiful, but not at all practical. The local council built a wet room a few years ago. It made washing and going to the loo […]

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Downsize to a flat, the story has just started

Downsize to a flat, the story has just started

We live in a Victorian terraced house. Downsize to a flat is our next step but the challenges have only just begun. We moved into this house over 20 years ago and its now time to move on and start a new chapter in our lives. The children grew up here and now lead independent […]

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My own cannabis experiment

My own cannabis experiment

I’ve had MS since 1972 and it has had a huge impact on life. It now affects me in every which way.  The wonderful NHS prescribes drugs that will ease my symptoms so every day I have to take a cocktail of pills. Time to look at other solutions. I decided to do my own cannabis experiment. […]

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I forget what I was going to tell you

I forget what I was going to tell you

I’ve had too many ideas on blogs to write over the last few months. Some frustrations, some positive experiences and even some actual thoughts. But when I start to write a blog there is a crisis that needs my full attention then I forget what I was going to tell you. I’m ten Recently this […]

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Thoughts on buying a mobility scooter

Thoughts on buying a mobility scooter

You are disabled and your mobility is getting worse. Now you realise you can no longer comfortably walk very far so you need to think on this. Distance is not the only problem, speed, balance and carrying also come into the equation. Thoughts turn to buying a mobility scooter. Original mobility scooter They first appeared […]

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What has happened to my energy?

What has happened to my energy?

What has happened to my energy? Back in the day, I had so much get up and go. I had a 9 – 5 job, 3 young children, a garden to look after and numerous other responsibilities. From about 2005 the wheels began to come off the car. I gradually had less energy to fit […]

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A UTI with advanced multiple sclerosis is no fun

A UTI with advanced multiple sclerosis is no fun

It crept up on me very slowly, just think of a lion stalking its prey. Initially, I was blissfully unaware that I had an infection. Looking back with the benefit of hindsight I can see how I slowly deteriorated followed by a slow recovery. A urinary tract infection or UTI with advanced multiple sclerosis is […]

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My interview on Tring Today – Friday 18 February

My interview on Tring Today – Friday 18 February

Bored on Friday 18th at lunch time? Why not tune into Tring radio on Friday between 12 and 1 and listen to my interview as a guest on Tring Today. Tring Radio is a local community radio station run entirely by volunteers. Two people started the station two years ago at the start of the […]

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Mobility scooter needs a bus permit

Mobility scooter needs a bus permit

In late July 2017 I was getting onto a bus at High Wycombe with my mobility scooter. The Arriva bus driver said “The mobility scooter needs a bus permit. Can I see it” Arriva are responsible for running all the buses in the towns close to where I live. I have to use the buses […]

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Shopping in a wheelchair is a challenge

Shopping in a wheelchair is a challenge

If you find walking easy then I am going to issue a challenge, go shopping in a wheelchair. Before you leave don’t forget to tie your legs together. You must go out on your own and don’t forget a shopping list or shopping bag. You will need some cash, credit cards and your mobile phone. […]

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With MS I now move like a tortoise slow but steady

With MS I now move like a tortoise slow but steady

As I move forward through time, ticking off the years, multiple sclerosis has an ever growing impact upon my life. Nowadays I must always have one hand holding onto something firm and stable. The happy days of nipping upstairs or popping next door are history. Now everything must be carefully considered. I now move like […]

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I’m a lucky guy Fampridine works for me

I’m a lucky guy Fampridine works for me

I take Fampridine and use an FES or Functional Electrical Stimulator, they both improve my quality of life. I can only walk with a rollator and it is agonisingly slow. Without them I would have to use a wheelchair. OK. my left leg is useless courtesy MS but I do have an excellent right leg. […]

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Table topics competition at Toastmasters floors me

Table topics competition at Toastmasters floors me

I have been a member of Toastmasters since 2012. It was September 2017 and I had entered a national competition. Either give a prepared humorous speech or talk on an unprepared subject. I had reached the second round of the unprepared speech, the table topics competition. Table Topics competition Make an impromptu unrehearsed speech on […]

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Now I’m a volunteer with Tring radio

Now I’m a volunteer with Tring radio

I have decided to volunteer with Tring Radio. Starting off with a little role.  I had a sneaky feeling that when I completed my sponsored #Walk4onehour in September I was going to feel lost. A new challenge was required and I was right. The sponsored walk had been a wonderful success. It had concentrated my […]

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Managing MS fatigue, an overwhelming inability to continue

Managing MS fatigue, an overwhelming inability to continue

Managing MS fatigue is a long story. As recently as 1995 I played badminton singles in the local sports centre, after just half an hour I was physically exhausted and very sweaty. I’ve now hung up my badminton racket, personally I blame multiple sclerosis,. I still suffer intense exhaustion but no sweating. Walking very slowly […]

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The day I walk for one hour

The day I walk for one hour

Its a wonderful September day. Warm enough to wear shorts but not so hot to become a shade seeking missile. Three months of preparation and I had one hour to prove that I could do it. Yup, Sunday 13th September was the day when I was going to walk for one hour and you had […]

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I’m planning a sponsored walk #Walk4onehour

I’m planning a sponsored walk #Walk4onehour

Lockdown and my world is changing. Still no one knows anything about the future. I knew I had to get out of the house and take some exercise to maintain my mental health plus I needed a goal. A sponsored walk. Perhaps I could organise it and do it, this would tick so many boxes. […]

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MS Botox bladder injections are life changing

MS Botox bladder injections are life changing

There are very few things that really improve the quality of my MS addled life. A few days ago I had MS Botox bladder injections for my squiffy bladder. An elephant left the room within 24 hours. Now I can casually stroll past a loo without thinking “Golly I must go in and have a […]

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I will always love my Travelscoot mobility scooter

I will always love my Travelscoot mobility scooter

I have owned a Travelscoot mobility scooter for ten years and it is still fun to ride. I have not seen another mobility scooter that is as versatile or manoeuvrable. As I cruise along the pavement, I see pedestrians eyeing up my scooter and they always look envious. Even after 10 years I still love […]

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Topro Troja Rollator

Topro Troja Rollator

The Topro Troja Rollator is a robust and reliable 4 wheeled walker. It is recommended to many multiple sclerosis sufferers who do not find walking easy and have poor balance. I have advanced MS and suffer from both these problems. I love this rollator because it is well designed, light as well as robust. Also […]

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Now I have twitchy legs at night

Now I have twitchy legs at night

There are hidden joys of multiple sclerosis. Its one long story of new challenges and survival. My latest problem, twitchy legs, only surfaced recently. It’s an uncontrollable twitch, starting in a muscle but culminating with my leg definitely twitching and repeats itself again and again. For some reason the fun only starts after the sun […]

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Patrick has found an important challenge to overcome

Patrick has found an important challenge to overcome

I need a challenge to overcome in my life. Lockdown has been a double-edged weapon for me. Watching the garden grow and evolve over the last three or four months has given me enormous pleasure. This garden project will last for the rest of the year. Finding the energy to take exercise was the problem. […]

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I am Patrick and I have advanced multiple sclerosis

I am Patrick and I have advanced multiple sclerosis

I am Patrick and I have advanced multiple sclerosis; A physically active life is no longer possible, balance and walking problems get in the way. Also I am not allowed to drive because of double vision, another kind gift from multiple sclerosis (MS). The beginning I am convinced my multiple sclerosis started in 1972, my […]

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Blogger’s block or possibly bored with lock down

Blogger’s block or possibly bored with lock down

20-June 2020 It’s been over 3 months since we were all catapulted onto a different planet. My day-to-day existence rules change every day. You as well? Subtle changes every day. Surely me, a person disabled by multiple sclerosis, should have no problem finding topics to write on and post them on my website. Nope its […]

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My exercise routine at home that ticks a lot of boxes

My exercise routine at home that ticks a lot of boxes

7 June 2020 I am proud of myself. Bit of an arrogant statement but what the hell. Every day always starts with a quick burst of aerobic activity. Enough to get my heart beating faster. Remember I’m badly disabled by multiple sclerosis, I cannot walk unaided. Is this exercise routine at home good for me? […]

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Our garden creates positive moments for us

Our garden creates positive moments for us

28 May 2020. Every cloud has a silver lining. Our garden creates positive moments for us. Since early March there has been an enormous cloud hanging over this country. This cloud forced our little niche business to close. The Wife is responsible for looking after up to half a dozen dogs each day while the […]

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I enjoy a spontaneous event during the lock down

I enjoy a spontaneous event during the lock down

23 May 2019 I enjoy a spontaneous event. Something completely unplanned and it must make me feel happy  During the lock down caused by Covid19 pandemic so many of these little life-events have stopped. I really was pleased to see the back of a few but there so many that I really miss.  I enjoy […]

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Now it is the boredom since lock down started

Now it is the boredom since lock down started

11/05/2020 Its now over 7 weeks since the Covid19 lock down started, boredom is definitely hovering on the perimeters of my life. Retaining focus and motivation are getting harder. Over the years me and MrsB have developed a good coping strategy and mutual understanding but these are unusual times. We are both stressed and frustrated […]

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Enjoying our garden during the lock-down

Enjoying our garden during the lock-down

24 April 2020 Well, isn’t the weather glorious, but it looks like some rain is due any day. I’m enjoying our garden during the lock-down. In this time of chaos l am able to quietly watch it evolve. More by good luck than design there is always at least one plant flowering in the garden […]

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I must ensure exercises become a routine activity

I must ensure exercises become a routine activity

18 April 2020. The coronavirus lock down started at the end of March. Our lives were then thrown into chaos. Everyone had to find a new routine, a new rhythm and this includes me. I made a simple promise to myself. I need to take more exercise and I must ensure the exercises become a […]

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Adapt my MS normal to Covid 19 isolation normal

Adapt my MS normal to Covid 19 isolation normal

9 April 2020. Right now the chips are down. I need to find a new life that includes Covid 19 isolation. I must not allow depression or anxiety to intrude or overwhelm life. We all need to come up with a new strategy or routine. I must change my MS normal to Covid 19 isolation. […]

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An MS crisis with my dysfunctional bladder

An MS crisis with my dysfunctional bladder

29 March 2020. This MS crisis started when I was on holiday in Valencia in February 2019. I woke up one morning wanting a pee but I was unable to insert a catheter into my bladder. The unflappable hotel staff directed me and The Wife to hospital where I was diagnosed with a UTI and […]

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Suffering from consequences of panic buying

Suffering from consequences of panic buying

20-March 2020. People are buying huge amounts of essential food and clearing supermarket shelves on a daily basis. I get out of bed at about 8.00. It takes me nearly an hour just to get dressed. Factor in breakfast and 90 minutes of the day is gone. At this stage of the morning some supermarkets […]

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Joseph Joseph Chop2pot Folding Chopping Board

Joseph Joseph Chop2pot Folding Chopping Board

Someone gave me a Chop2Pot folding chopping board as a present. I use it whenever I am preparing food to cook. The biggest advantage for me is I use it to transfer food from a large and heavy wooden chopping board to the cooking pot. I am clumsy and moving hot pots and pans between […]

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