Living With MS

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Leg drop and foot drop, different MS disabilities

Leg drop and foot drop, different MS disabilities

Leg drop is an MS disability that makes my life awfully difficult. Do not confuse it with foot drop. These are two very different MS disabilities and I suffer from both. Foot drop and leg drop are inevitably mentioned in the same sentence as if they are the same problem and can be resolved the […]

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Leg drop glues my foot to the floor

Leg drop glues my foot to the floor

Leg drop glues my foot to the floor. You might think I am joking but I cannot lift my left leg off the ground without help. Its just like foot drop but it affects my thigh instead of my foot and the effect is just the same. Its difficult to imagine the problems until they […]

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I’m a frequent faller, its a fact of life

I’m a frequent faller, its a fact of life

I’m a frequent faller, its all because I have multiple sclerosis. My left leg is the culprit, I have drop foot and drop leg. It must have started sometime in the 1990’s, my diagnosis was in 1996. What started as an occasional trivial event now has a major impact on my life. At first the […]

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Paristeen is another morning routine

Paristeen is another morning routine

Peristeen is another morning routine. This was not a random decision, Peristeen is vital for bowel management and it is now an essential part of my life. I do have a good healthy relationship with my MS but living with it can be tricky and life never stays still. If you have never heard of […]

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Advanced MS and sitting down exercises

Advanced MS and sitting down exercises

Advanced MS and exercise are not natural bedfellows. None the less exercise can help us all to manage common MS symptoms such as fatigue, muscle spasms or balance. When I was a child my parents were always saying to me, “Go out side and take some exercise” and it was so easy. Those were happy […]

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Poor balance and mobility makes walking difficult

Poor balance and mobility makes walking difficult

I have poor balance and mobility so I use a mobility scooter. I remember in 2012 when medical retirement arrived I could easily lift my mobility scooter onto a train and I did not need a walking stick either. Those were carefree days, now long gone. Nobody told me how my life would change in […]

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Do we really need a car in London?

Do we really need a car in London?

Do we really need a car now we are living in London?  Our car is a 14 year old 2 litre diesel VW Passat estate, far too big for us in London. Its not ULEZ compliant (Ultra Low Emission Zone), much too old. Its starting to cost more every time it has an MOT. Also […]

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A short visit to Woburn Centre Parcs

A short visit to Woburn Centre Parcs

I last visited Centre Parcs when all 3 of our children were under 10, over thirty years ago. My diagnosis of multiple sclerosis was at least 10 years into the future. Now our two daughters are married, and each has a baby son and I am living with advanced multiple sclerosis. A visit to Centre […]

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3 traumatic injuries to me

3 traumatic injuries to me

Visits to hospital Multiple Sclerosis was the the one factor that joins these 3 traumatic injuries together. None of them could be described as fun but hey, I survived. Sepsis December 2013 I have used intermittent self-catheterisation to empty my bladder since 2005. this visit to hospital occurred in 2013. I had just received a […]

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My life with MS and invisible disabilities

My life with MS and invisible disabilities

My life with MS is turning into a balancing act. Not the high-wire type of balance, just making sure I don’t do two things simultaneously. My life is now just one job at a time, no more walking and talking. Invisible disabilities rule plus they control my life. Nobody knows I have invisible disabilities unless […]

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Time to move into a more suitable property

Time to move into a more suitable property

Me and MrsB decided its time to move into a more suitable property. Multiple sclerosis and age have finally caught up with me.  Our Victorian five bedroomed terraced house is beautiful, but not at all practical. The local council built a wet room a few years ago. It made washing and going to the loo […]

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My own cannabis experiment

My own cannabis experiment

I’ve had MS since 1972 and it has had a huge impact on life. It now affects me in every which way.  The wonderful NHS prescribes drugs that will ease my symptoms so every day I have to take a cocktail of pills. Time to look at other solutions. I decided to do my own cannabis experiment. […]

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I forget what I was going to tell you

I forget what I was going to tell you

I’ve had too many ideas on blogs to write over the last few months. Some frustrations, some positive experiences and even some actual thoughts. But when I start to write a blog there is a crisis that needs my full attention then I forget what I was going to tell you. I’m ten Recently this […]

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What has happened to my energy?

What has happened to my energy?

What has happened to my energy? Back in the day, I had so much get up and go. I had a 9 – 5 job, 3 young children, a garden to look after and numerous other responsibilities. From about 2005 the wheels began to come off the car. I gradually had less energy to fit […]

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A UTI with advanced multiple sclerosis is no fun

A UTI with advanced multiple sclerosis is no fun

It crept up on me very slowly, just think of a lion stalking its prey. Initially, I was blissfully unaware that I had an infection. Looking back with the benefit of hindsight I can see how I slowly deteriorated followed by a slow recovery. A urinary tract infection or UTI with advanced multiple sclerosis is […]

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My interview on Tring Today – Friday 18 February

My interview on Tring Today – Friday 18 February

Bored on Friday 18th at lunch time? Why not tune into Tring radio on Friday between 12 and 1 and listen to my interview as a guest on Tring Today. Tring Radio is a local community radio station run entirely by volunteers. Two people started the station two years ago at the start of the […]

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Shopping in a wheelchair is a challenge

Shopping in a wheelchair is a challenge

If you find walking easy then I am going to issue a challenge, go shopping in a wheelchair. Before you leave don’t forget to tie your legs together. You must go out on your own and don’t forget a shopping list or shopping bag. You will need some cash, credit cards and your mobile phone. […]

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My MS journey begins, 24 years before diagnosis

My MS journey begins, 24 years before diagnosis

Some events are very significant, and the emotional impact is unforgettable. Events such as marriage, death of a spouse or parent. I will never forget that moment in 1996 when the consultant uttered the words “You have multiple sclerosis”. Many years later I realised my MS journey began 24 years before my diagnosis. My MS […]

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Understand MS fatigue, logic can fly out of the window

Understand MS fatigue, logic can fly out of the window

For many people fatigue is an unenviable part of multiple sclerosis, its severity varies from person to person.  People do not truly understand MS fatigue unless they suffer from it. The cause of this hidden disability is not properly understood. Worse still, too many people do not appreciate that fatigue is a chronic hidden disability. […]

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Something vaguely interesting, dining across the divide

Something vaguely interesting, dining across the divide

Its July, the middle of a dreadful summer and I’ve got nothing to do so I‘m surfing the internet. I find something vaguely interesting, The Guardian are offering a chance to have a discussion with someone who holds opposing views. A free meal is thrown in. I answer the questions on my views, submit my […]

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I attempt a stupid walking challenge, only 100 Km

I attempt a stupid walking challenge, only 100 Km

Earlier this year I tried a stupid walking challenge, only a mere 100 Km over 10 months. I have used an FES for over six years, it  helps my walking. A year ago I completed a one hour walk. At the end I was exhausted but it was deeply satisfying especially as I raised over […]

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Would  a spiky ball foot massage help me with my balance?

Would  a spiky ball foot massage help me with my balance?

I was toppling onto the floor far too often and I could see a wheelchair hovering over me 🙁 So, I arranged to see a physiotherapist at the Chilterns MS Therapy centre. At the start of every appointment the physiotherapist massaged my feet and ankles with a spiky ball to improve my balance.  Would  a […]

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Medical retirement sounds relaxing until it happens

Medical retirement sounds relaxing until it happens

Imagine I’m 10 years younger, a mere 56 but still with advanced MS. Faced with the prospect of returning to the office or still working from home then the idea of early retirement is exciting. The children have flown the nest and grandchildren are imminent. Would a city break in Europe suit me and The […]

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Now I’m comfortable in my skin

Now I’m comfortable in my skin

Multiple sclerosis affects everyone differently. My life was busy with work, family and a tiny wee bit of MS until medical retirement arrived. My MS started in 1972 but it was not diagnosed until 1996 with RRMS. MS made no impact on my life even after diagnosis, the relapses were very sporadic and disappeared as […]

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My sewing skills are tested in the Under and Over trial

My sewing skills are tested in the Under and Over trial

Twelve weeks to test my sewing skills. Another one of my MS stories. That old friend MS is now slowly destroying the nerves I use to control the fingers of my left hand. Find out how I discover my sewing skills have deteriorated. My sewing skills There was a time, many years ago when I […]

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Broken skin: my Functional Electrical Stimulation story

Broken skin: my Functional Electrical Stimulation story

MS affects my left leg and I have been using an FES since late 2014. For the previous 10 years I had used a Musmate a simple mechanical device that is a walking aid for foot-drop. My foot-drop and leg-drop mean that I cannot walk unaided and I walk very slowly. My Functional Electrical Stimulation […]

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The curious incident of the missing disability ramp

The curious incident of the missing disability ramp

I often travel by train on London NorthWestern Railway, I ride The Tike to my local station, flash my disabled person’s travel card, and buy a ticket. The staff check which train I am catching and my destination. When the train arrives at the station a member of the staff puts up disability ramp up […]

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Dog chews the internet cable

Dog chews the internet cable

Stress happens when there is an excess of emotional or mental pressure. Something totally unexpected happens and the body does not know what to do. The flight or fight reaction creates a conflict which leads to stress. Dog chews the internet cable taking my stress levels to a new high. The Lunchbox show Every Thursday […]

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I have a radio show

I have a radio show

I have a radio show with Tring radio every week. We, me and Jessie, present a magazine show, just chat and music. This Thursday 3rd June will be my 10th show live on air. I have always wanted be on the radio but never admitted that to myself. The organisers, Tim and Rachel together with […]

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2021 MS Awareness Week or living with my multiple sclerosis

2021 MS Awareness Week or living with my multiple sclerosis

It’s the annual chance to make people more aware of the problems of living with multiple sclerosis. Yup, its the MS Awareness week. Multiple sclerosis is different for everyone, The handicaps, niggles and disabilities all gang up and form your own personalised version of MS. I have my own unique selection, but hey-ho things could […]

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My positive attitude despite MS disability

My positive attitude despite MS disability

Isn’t it great when a positive event happens, I love it. The wretched pandemic has imposed so many restrictions on everyone’s life, mine has been no exception. It’s not always easy to see when there is an opportunity that is exciting and fun. I always try to have a positive attitude despite MS disability. Gardening […]

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Under & Over Rehabilitation Trial

Under & Over Rehabilitation Trial

This is an opportunity to check out if a daily 30 minute sewing exercise program can help with rehabilitation of arms, fingers and hands. This sounds absolutely ideal for me. Its called the Under & Over Rehabilitation trial. People take it for granted that they can write, use a cork screw or peel an onion. […]

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The urgent search for hope by Patrick Burke

The urgent search for hope by Patrick Burke

I always enjoy unexpected surprises. One started in early November. I was having my 18-month check-up for the MS-Stat2 drug trial with simvastatin. It’s always a pleasure going down to the MS centre at Queens Square, the staff are really friendly. Also there is an urgent search for hope for people with MS. The end […]

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With MS I now move like a tortoise slow but steady

With MS I now move like a tortoise slow but steady

As I move forward through time, ticking off the years, multiple sclerosis has an ever growing impact upon my life. Nowadays I must always have one hand holding onto something firm and stable. The happy days of nipping upstairs or popping next door are history. Now everything must be carefully considered. I now move like […]

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I’m a lucky guy Fampridine works for me

I’m a lucky guy Fampridine works for me

I take Fampridine and use an FES or Functional Electrical Stimulator, they both improve my quality of life. I can only walk with a rollator and it is agonisingly slow. Without them I would have to use a wheelchair. OK. my left leg is useless courtesy MS but I do have an excellent right leg. […]

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Table topics competition at Toastmasters floors me

Table topics competition at Toastmasters floors me

I have been a member of Toastmasters since 2012. It was September 2017 and I had entered a national competition. Either give a prepared humorous speech or talk on an unprepared subject. I had reached the second round of the unprepared speech, the table topics competition. Table Topics competition Make an impromptu unrehearsed speech on […]

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Now I’m a volunteer with Tring radio

Now I’m a volunteer with Tring radio

I have decided to volunteer with Tring Radio. Starting off with a little role.  I had a sneaky feeling that when I completed my sponsored #Walk4onehour in September I was going to feel lost. A new challenge was required and I was right. The sponsored walk had been a wonderful success. It had concentrated my […]

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Managing MS fatigue, an overwhelming inability to continue

Managing MS fatigue, an overwhelming inability to continue

Managing MS fatigue is a long story. As recently as 1995 I played badminton singles in the local sports centre, after just half an hour I was physically exhausted and very sweaty. I’ve now hung up my badminton racket, personally I blame multiple sclerosis,. I still suffer intense exhaustion but no sweating. Walking very slowly […]

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The day I walk for one hour

The day I walk for one hour

Its a wonderful September day. Warm enough to wear shorts but not so hot to become a shade seeking missile. Three months of preparation and I had one hour to prove that I could do it. Yup, Sunday 13th September was the day when I was going to walk for one hour and you had […]

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I’m planning a sponsored walk #Walk4onehour

I’m planning a sponsored walk #Walk4onehour

Lockdown and my world is changing. Still no one knows anything about the future. I knew I had to get out of the house and take some exercise to maintain my mental health plus I needed a goal. A sponsored walk. Perhaps I could organise it and do it, this would tick so many boxes. […]

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MS Botox bladder injections are life changing

MS Botox bladder injections are life changing

There are very few things that really improve the quality of my MS addled life. A few days ago I had MS Botox bladder injections for my squiffy bladder. An elephant left the room within 24 hours. Now I can casually stroll past a loo without thinking “Golly I must go in and have a […]

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Now I have twitchy legs at night

Now I have twitchy legs at night

There are hidden joys of multiple sclerosis. Its one long story of new challenges and survival. My latest problem, twitchy legs, only surfaced recently. It’s an uncontrollable twitch, starting in a muscle but culminating with my leg definitely twitching and repeats itself again and again. For some reason the fun only starts after the sun […]

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Patrick has found an important challenge to overcome

Patrick has found an important challenge to overcome

I need a challenge to overcome in my life. Lockdown has been a double-edged weapon for me. Watching the garden grow and evolve over the last three or four months has given me enormous pleasure. This garden project will last for the rest of the year. Finding the energy to take exercise was the problem. […]

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Blogger’s block or possibly bored with lock down

Blogger’s block or possibly bored with lock down

20-June 2020 It’s been over 3 months since we were all catapulted onto a different planet. My day-to-day existence rules change every day. You as well? Subtle changes every day. Surely me, a person disabled by multiple sclerosis, should have no problem finding topics to write on and post them on my website. Nope its […]

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My exercise routine at home that ticks a lot of boxes

My exercise routine at home that ticks a lot of boxes

7 June 2020 I am proud of myself. Bit of an arrogant statement but what the hell. Every day always starts with a quick burst of aerobic activity. Enough to get my heart beating faster. Remember I’m badly disabled by multiple sclerosis, I cannot walk unaided. Is this exercise routine at home good for me? […]

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Our garden creates positive moments for us

Our garden creates positive moments for us

28 May 2020. Every cloud has a silver lining. Our garden creates positive moments for us. Since early March there has been an enormous cloud hanging over this country. This cloud forced our little niche business to close. The Wife is responsible for looking after up to half a dozen dogs each day while the […]

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I enjoy a spontaneous event during the lock down

I enjoy a spontaneous event during the lock down

23 May 2019 I enjoy a spontaneous event. Something completely unplanned and it must make me feel happy  During the lock down caused by Covid19 pandemic so many of these little life-events have stopped. I really was pleased to see the back of a few but there so many that I really miss.  I enjoy […]

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Now it is the boredom since lock down started

Now it is the boredom since lock down started

11/05/2020 Its now over 7 weeks since the Covid19 lock down started, boredom is definitely hovering on the perimeters of my life. Retaining focus and motivation are getting harder. Over the years me and MrsB have developed a good coping strategy and mutual understanding but these are unusual times. We are both stressed and frustrated […]

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Busy doing nothing, I want some variation

Busy doing nothing, I want some variation

5 May 2020. So here we are, over six weeks into the lock down. Forty-two times one day has morphed into the next. The only variation is the weather. I am busy doing nothing. I  have a garden, I can see trees and everyone is friendly so I am lucky. Sadly I am not keeping myself […]

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Enjoying our garden during the lock-down

Enjoying our garden during the lock-down

24 April 2020 Well, isn’t the weather glorious, but it looks like some rain is due any day. I’m enjoying our garden during the lock-down. In this time of chaos l am able to quietly watch it evolve. More by good luck than design there is always at least one plant flowering in the garden […]

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I must ensure exercises become a routine activity

I must ensure exercises become a routine activity

18 April 2020. The coronavirus lock down started at the end of March. Our lives were then thrown into chaos. Everyone had to find a new routine, a new rhythm and this includes me. I made a simple promise to myself. I need to take more exercise and I must ensure the exercises become a […]

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Adapt my MS normal to Covid 19 isolation normal

Adapt my MS normal to Covid 19 isolation normal

9 April 2020. Right now the chips are down. I need to find a new life that includes Covid 19 isolation. I must not allow depression or anxiety to intrude or overwhelm life. We all need to come up with a new strategy or routine. I must change my MS normal to Covid 19 isolation. […]

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An MS crisis with my dysfunctional bladder

An MS crisis with my dysfunctional bladder

29 March 2020. This MS crisis started when I was on holiday in Valencia in February 2019. I woke up one morning wanting a pee but I was unable to insert a catheter into my bladder. The unflappable hotel staff directed me and The Wife to hospital where I was diagnosed with a UTI and […]

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Suffering from consequences of panic buying

Suffering from consequences of panic buying

20-March 2020. People are buying huge amounts of essential food and clearing supermarket shelves on a daily basis. I get out of bed at about 8.00. It takes me nearly an hour just to get dressed. Factor in breakfast and 90 minutes of the day is gone. At this stage of the morning some supermarkets […]

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Further handicaps because of MS

Further handicaps because of MS

  I have a problem with expecting too much from myself. This in turn hurts me more than it helps me. I am always looking at my life and trying to simplify everything I do but it is harder than it seems. The biggest problem with advanced MS is how an ordinary activity is suddenly […]

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Chemistry in the kitchen

Chemistry in the kitchen

Cooking food is simple and easy for me plus everyone enjoys food cooked by somebody else. I have also rediscovered baking, just four or five basic ingredients and you create a cake. Incidentally I love raw cake mixture, but the cooked product is sooo much better. It was after a recent cake disaster that I […]

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Disabled and can’t walk unaided, welcome to my world

Disabled and can’t walk unaided, welcome to my world

The pernicious creature multiple sclerosis affects me more and more as time goes by. I do have two legs but one of them is virtually useless. My brain cannot send messages to all the muscles in my left leg. Also, my left leg does not tell my brain everything that it has done. Messages cannot […]

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Discounted theatre tickets for disabled people

Discounted theatre tickets for disabled people

Almost every British theatre offers discounted tickets for disabled people. Basically the carer gets in for free. I have seen excellent productions as well as extremely good actors via this scheme. This opportunity of discounted tickets for disabled people is available all  over the UK. If you can show that you are disabled then your […]

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My last ten years with multiple sclerosis

My last ten years with multiple sclerosis

In the last last ten years I have changed from a man in full-time employment to a man with very visible, full-on, multiple sclerosis. Until 2011 my multiple sclerosis was affecting me physically but my thinking and problem-solving skills were still good. Employment was always somewhere in Europe as a contract computer analyst programmer or […]

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Another way to dry my phone

Another way to dry my phone

I dropped my mobile phone down the loo, accidentally of course 🙂 . To be more precise it fell out of my back jeans pocket and sank beneath the surface; a trail of bubbles gave its position away. I fished it out, gave it a quick dry with a towel and then put it into […]

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Multiple sclerosis and the double whammy

Multiple sclerosis and the double whammy

Multiple sclerosis has taken over my life very very slowly. That sounds so much better than ruining my life very very slowly. It all started in 1972 and remained in the shadows for thirty years. The disease is now grown up, it’s matured into SPMS. For every disability there is a consequence. I call this […]

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I am disabled but am I green enough?

I am disabled but am I green enough?

I suffer from advanced multiple sclerosis so I am disabled.  I am disabled but am I green enough? Can I balance my disability with being an ecological friendly person? Sometimes I can and I do make planet-friendly choices but there are many other areas that are a total car-crash. In the latter case I have […]

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Hidden disabilities of my MS

Hidden disabilities of my MS

My MS diagnosis was in 1996. Little relapses were always followed by a lengthy remission. I was working and leading a perfectly normal life or so it seemed to an outsider. In 2000 my remissions stopped. The anxiety, bladder and walking problems of MS became permanent and they also slowly got worse and worse. An […]

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Firing on all four cylinders

Firing on all four cylinders

I am now recovering from a particularly nasty bout of man-flu. I was in bed for two a half days with a sneeze rate of anything up to 10 per hour. Add to this a temperature and I felt super grotty. I was not firing on all four cylinders Going out into the fresh air […]

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I can now see light at the end of the tunnel

I can now see light at the end of the tunnel

Someone told me my last couple of blogs were not optimistic, Guilty as charged. In my defence I say that advanced multiple sclerosis is a gritty disabling disease. It is always there, in your face and in your head. There is no escape from it. The good news is that in my head I can […]

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I’m full of good intentions

I’m full of good intentions

I remember the happy blue sky of summer, do you? Now a large black cloud fills my sky. Where are those happy days? I’m full of good intentions but there is always an excuse. The black cloud will soon blow away. Multiple sclerosis is to blame for the black cloud. Now I have no motivation […]

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More experience of sitting down gardening

More experience of sitting down gardening

Standing up gardening has one big drawback for me. I will fall over and I do. Digging a hole with a spade is not an option. In fact The Wife has banned me from that activity but secretly I’m quite relieved. Instead I do sitting down gardening, it is what it says on the tin. […]

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I do feel isolated by my multiple sclerosis

I do feel isolated by my multiple sclerosis

As my MS gets worse my world gets smaller and smaller. My MS and I cohabited quite happily for 35 years. Okay we had the odd problem but basically we had a healthy relationship. About 10 years ago the impact of MS on my life started to grow. Now I do feel isolated by my […]

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Hottest day of the year

Hottest day of the year

It was the day that people with Multiple Sclerosis dread, total wipe-out by heat on Thursday25 June, the hottest day of the year. All motivation left my body as if by magic and my energy reserves evaporated. I felt as if I was walking through treacle. Life on that super-hot day was an endurance test. […]

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I’m talking about Uhthoff’s syndrome

I’m talking about Uhthoff’s syndrome

The mercury in the thermometer will creep up over the summer. Some days it creeps higher than other days. Whilst it remains below 20 I am more than happy, 21 or 22 and I need to be careful. If it gets over 23 then I can only venture out occasionally. I’m talking about Uhthoff’s syndrome. […]

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Methods I use to manage my multiple sclerosis

Methods I use to manage my multiple sclerosis

Multiple sclerosis is a very unpredictable disease and tough to live with. I think we all know that; I certainly do. MS has now been a part of my life since 1972 but I was not diagnosed until 1995. Here some methods I use to manage my advanced multiple sclerosis. Everyone has their own way […]

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Some of my MS disabilities are invisible

Some of my MS disabilities are invisible

Multiple sclerosis rules my life. Even when I think I am on the home run it will stick out a tentacle and trip me up. You too as well I guess. I have obvious disabilities such as walking, in fact I cannot walk unaided. Some of my MS disabilities are invisible. People will not know […]

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Physically disabled in Athens a survival guide

Physically disabled in Athens a survival guide

I am on the Patient Advisory Board for the RADAR-CNS project. This is an exciting and ground-breaking project and rather than me explaining it, I suggest you go to their website which is HERE. This year their annual conference was in Athens and I was there for four days in mid May. If you are […]

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Medical retirement 75 months ago

Medical retirement 75 months ago

I took medical retirement in January 2012. That makes it sound like a voluntary decision so let me reword that. Medical retirement grabbed me 75 months ago in January 2012. For me there was no option. 🙁 A permanent holiday It sounds absolutely idyllic. I did not realise what an earth shattering process this was […]

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Invisible disabilities are the hardest

Invisible disabilities are the hardest

Multiple sclerosis comes in all sorts of packages. There is no ‘one size fits all’. When I read the newspaper I look very healthy. As soon as I stand up everyone can see I’m seriously disabled.  This is the flip side of MS, the invisible disabilities are the hardest to understand. Few would realise the […]

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Is physical exercise good for me

Is physical exercise good for me

I believe that exercise is good for me and essential to having a good quality of life even despIte suffering from aDVANCED ms MS. It is an excellent activity to re-connect the mind and body before or after a long day of stress. My MS stops aerobic exercise, getting all hot and sweaty. Even just […]

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Multiple sclerosis is a vile disease

Multiple sclerosis is a vile disease

MS smothers you, wraps you up in its tentacles and replaces energy with fatigue. I can no longer do things that other people take completely for granted. Even worse there is nothing predictable about it except it just gets worse and worse and worse. It can even lurk in the body for years before its […]

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Negotiations with the NHS after a UTI

Negotiations with the NHS after a UTI

Within 3 hours of arriving in Seville on 14 Feb I was in a hospital because of a UTI, a nasty bacterial infection. An indwelling catheter was inserted into my bladder; a 6 inch piece of rubber tubing hanging off the end of my willy, it was no fun. A simple rubber bung jammed into […]

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Five fly to Seville and I got myself a UTI

Five fly to Seville and I got myself a UTI

Five of us fly to Seville for a five day holiday on Valentines day. The Ryanair flight left Stansted airport at 6.40 in the morning. It’s a 3 hour flight and it takes an hour to drive there. It was going to be a long day but at least I had a little nap during […]

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My long journey with multiple sclerosis

My long journey with multiple sclerosis

This is the story of 45 years of my life living with multiple sclerosis as we both grew up. I did not piece the whole story together until I took medical retirement in 2012. My long journey with multiple sclerosis. My long journey with multiple sclerosis It all started in 1972 and I was almost […]

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My first job interview since 2012

My first job interview since 2012

Recently I received an email from a charity that wanted to interview me for a zero hour contract position. I have advanced multiple sclerosis and I cannot walk unaided which I disclosed on the application form. This was going to be my first job interview since 2012. My MS blew the last one in 2012 […]

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Making an annual wish to improve my life

Making an annual wish to improve my life

Back in the day I would make a resolution every New Year’s eve. Its such an easy thing to say when I’ve drunk a glass a glass or two too many. Everyone else has made one so why shouldn’t I? Now I’m a bit softer in the stomach and wiser in the head so I’ve […]

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Simple things I now need to understand

Simple things I now need to understand

A few years ago I kidded myself that I could still do the things just like I did in the noughties. Simple things I now need to understand. “Don’t worry, I can do it” I shouted enthusiastically as I was starting jobs like cooking supper. It would all begin swimmingly. Suddenly, out of the blue, […]

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Detected definite changes since last year

Detected definite changes since last year

It is extraordinary how one year rolls into the next at an ever increasing speed. At a quick glance I am exactly the same as 12 months ago. I’ve still got MS, who saw that one coming! I still ride The Trike and I’m still just as busy. Now scratch beneath the surface. I have […]

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Call it advanced multiple sclerosis

Call it advanced multiple sclerosis

Soon I’m going to be 64 so not quite as nimble as I was. Age doesn’t stop me having a social life. I go to the theatre and museums in London. Meet friends in one of the numerous coffee shops in our town. I go to the supermarket, buy the food and then cook dinner. […]

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Doing Pilates sitting down

Doing Pilates sitting down

Pilates is a stretching and exercise program focusing on core muscles. These are the ones in your stomach. Keeping these muscles healthy does help my balance and walking. To put it bluntly this means I don’t need to use a wheelchair just yet. It’s only too easy to say “Oh I need to take some […]

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Creating my own social capital

Creating my own social capital

Social capital is happening all the time around us. Reading this blog is social capital. Just being with other people gives you social capital. I expect you’ve already gone to Google and typed in those two words, billions of hits. Now I am creating my own social capital. Creating my own social capital I won’t […]

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I am physically disabled but I still travel

I am physically disabled but I still travel

When I was working I travelled all over the world then medical retirement kicked me in the groin. Life as I knew it suddenly changed. Occasionally I still get the urge to travel, this time me and MrsB went to Australia. I am physically disabled but I still travel. Cut the stress I have just […]

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DWP decide my Personal Independence Payment

DWP decide my Personal Independence Payment

This morning I received a brown envelope from Belfast. I knew the contents straightaway, the DWP had made a decision. I had already read the assessor ‘s report. How will the DWP decide my Personal Independence Payment benefits. A normal life I did not know if the DWP decision was going to be a mere […]

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Assessment for my PIP benefits

Assessment for my PIP benefits

A week after my face-to-face assessment I phoned up the DWP and requested a copy of the assessor’s report. I was told to expect it within 7 to 10 working days. Two weeks later I received a letter from the DWP which said they now had enough information to be able to make a decision […]

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Three vignettes from the last few days

Three vignettes from the last few days

A change to the usual post; three vignettes from the last few days. August was supposed to be a quiet month but there has been something happening nearly every day. Summer is now over and the days are getting noticeably shorter. The ‘to do’ list was supposed to shrink, instead it has grown. Looking ahead Next […]

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Over 30 degrees Celsius this summer

Over 30 degrees Celsius this summer

The summer of 1976, was so hot that I got a good suntan in Aberdeen. A student job, I was working outdoors every day. In Hertfordshire the temperature has frequently been over 30 degrees Celsius this summer. At times  it’s been far too hot, stuffy and airless for my own comfort. Let me explain Don’t get […]

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PIP face to face assessment

PIP face to face assessment

Finally Wednesday 1 August has arrived, it’s my PIP face to face assessment. I had not slept well the previous night. Stress and worry were not the only reasons, that irascible little friend MS was in the mix. I just could not get out of bed as early as usual. In fact it was a […]

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I have discovered sitting-down gardening

I have discovered sitting-down gardening

Another change because of MS. Time to discover a different way to garden. Now it is now ‘plastic-lined’ boxes type of gardening. No more digging holes with a spade or bending over to pull up weeds. I have discovered sitting-down gardening.  Perhaps it found me, who knows? Childhood My father introduced me to gardening when […]

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One Hell of a Day

One Hell of a Day

There have been some cracking days this summer. Yup, it has been a bit hot but I have really enjoyed getting dressed in just a T-shirt and a pair of shorts. Like all good things there will be an end. I had a bit of a hiccup on Monday 9th July. It really was one […]

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A progressive disease is one that gets worse

A progressive disease is one that gets worse

A progressive disease is one that gets worse. Perfectly true but for an awful lot of them it’s in an unpredictable way. Will it progress quickly or slowly? Is it predictable? What are the consequences? Inevitably this leads to a lot of anxiety, sometimes even depression and worry. Doesn’t this sound like multiple sclerosis? I […]

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Aid4Disabled is nominated as an MS blog

Aid4Disabled is nominated as an MS blog

I’m wary of emails from people or organisations that I have never heard of. I receive an enormous amount of spam email. Its when they begin “Hi Aid4Disabled”, I look no further and press the delete key. Imagine my surprise when an email told me “Aid4Disabled is nominated as an MS blog”. How did it […]

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After finishing the MS-SMART drug trial

After finishing the MS-SMART drug trial

I was a participant in the MS-SMART drug trial. If you look back over the blogs I wrote while I was on the trial my MS didn’t seem to get worse. A big question comes was after finishing the MS-SMART drug trial. Was I on a placebo, a treatment with no active therapeutic effect, or did the […]

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My PIP benefits form is in the post

My PIP benefits form is in the post

I am in France it’s a beautiful hot sunny day but I cannot sit outside. Uhthoff’s syndrome has put paid to that little pleasure. Back to the plot. My PIP benefits form is in the post. So relieved that I have finished it. Bit controversial here Why do the DWP need to make their questions […]

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DWP will discover and evaluate what I cannot do

DWP will discover and evaluate what I cannot do

The DWP have kept their side of the bargain. I have received a form so I can explain how my disability affects me. It’s a horror, 40 pages booklet with about 45 questions and statements to be completed. DWP will discover and evaluate what I cannot do. I am then awarded PIP benefits but its […]

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